I’ve always struggled promptly replying to messages from friends and family. I find it a struggle to authentically express myself so everything feels really forced and empty, like there’s doubt laced into every word I type. This has become more visceral since beginning this course, and I feel anxiety while trying to reply or knowing I have messages to respond to. What is happening here, is this something that will change with more regulation?
Call Tag: sensations
What to do to feel more sensations, particularly those from anger and freeze?
I’m having issues with identifying sensations, emotions, and feelings. Both when I’m dysregulated and when I’m doing the neurosensory exercises. I did think I was getting more regulated, but now feel I’ve gotten more dysregulated. Could you please suggest reasons for not being able to identify these? And how can I make progress? It feels like I’m just not getting it at all. I find I’m making guesses to what these sensations or feelings are, and then I later realize that that wasn’t right.
“As I’m able to track my sensations and emotions, I notice it’s easier to cry. To experience sadness and fear, as opposed to anger. And I’m able to rationalize some for the people that have hurt me.” That sounds like maybe you can understand where they were coming from, kind of deal. “They say hurt is under anger, and I don’t want to bypass that emotion altogether.”
Why? Why is this happening? What does it mean? What does it all mean? I’ve had a few questions come in that are sort of asking about a symptom or a sensation they were having, and the question was why is this happening? What does it mean?
Let me see. Anything else here. Okay. And then someone else asked, “Every time I do this resistance exercise, I notice a tightness in the chest, throat, and mouth. Something I’ve been dealing with on a daily basis for over a decade. And the first time I did the exercise, the words that came to me were, I choke. How do I know that this is resistance I’m dealing with?”
“I know dysregulation often causes reduced hunger and appetite, but can the opposite be true?” You betcha. “I’m always hungry, never satiated. When I intentionally eat a balanced meal, I still feel hunger sensations even if I’m physically full and stuffed. I eat more than enough calories every day, about 2,400. I’m overweight and desire to lose some weight, but I’m so triggered by hunger because of the low blood sugar symptoms, so I remain overweight because I’m hungry all the time and am very uncomfortable with hunger.
“Sometimes during containment, especially if it’s a trauma sensation I’m working with, I get very vivid visuals. Can you explain why? They’re not always necessarily a memory. Often, they have a more spiritual or fantasy component to them. I still feel embodied with them.”
If one is experiencing sensation of their central nervous system, would practicing the neurosensory exercises regularly help calm that hypersensitivity over time? Would you suggest any adjustments to the exercises for hypersensitive SBSM participants who feel sensations way too intensely?
“My question is about following your impulse. I totally understand the idea behind it, but I also know that in meditation, like Vipassana for instance, it is being said to sit and let the sensations come up and dissolve, instead of acting on them. For instance, an urge to move your leg, that will finally go away. I know you practice Vipassana as well, so how do you relate to this? What to do in a Vipassana retreat, follow my impulse or not?