My partner has three kids and we have one together. I feel anger and resentment towards his situation and was trying for years to cope with feeling wrong for not wanting his kids. I have early developmental trauma, been working on this for years, but being in the situation with his kids causes survival stress. This plays a part in my condition of chronic fatigue syndrome. My body signals to run away, but I can’t. So I froze. It screams no, but the love to my partner and the idea of what’s right makes me override my impulse. Any suggestions?
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Something my trauma patterns have a hard time doing is making decisions. I either freeze up and stay stagnant, or I have to adrenalize myself forward and bypass the fear. Especially if it’s a bigger decision, like finding a way to make money long term, or where to live for a couple months. I’m curious, when there’s still trauma present, how can we make aligned decisions? Or is it more about not getting hung up on making the right decisions, and just living our life to the best of our ability?