Sometimes I find myself trying to force things to come up in this work, like feelings and movements. I have preverbal trauma and I know trauma is related to being forced to do things, including sexual trauma. When I try to force things to come up, it feels like I’m violating myself, and I wonder in these instances, if I’m tapping into the energy of my trauma. It feels like I’m playing out both parts, victim and perpetrator, inside myself. Does this make sense? And any advice for working with this?
Call Tag: feelings
I’m having issues with identifying sensations, emotions, and feelings. Both when I’m dysregulated and when I’m doing the neurosensory exercises. I did think I was getting more regulated, but now feel I’ve gotten more dysregulated. Could you please suggest reasons for not being able to identify these? And how can I make progress? It feels like I’m just not getting it at all. I find I’m making guesses to what these sensations or feelings are, and then I later realize that that wasn’t right.
“Sometimes during containment, especially if it’s a trauma sensation I’m working with, I get very vivid visuals. Can you explain why? They’re not always necessarily a memory. Often, they have a more spiritual or fantasy component to them. I still feel embodied with them.”