I’m 51 and in a loving relationship for 11 years. I’ve since the start, had my nervous system going into a hypervigilant mode around my partner’s involvement with his ex and his kids, which feels like a big threat to my internal safety. It’s all above board in doing the right thing from his part. I think I’ve got complex PTSD from being exposed to this regularly. I was born breached with hip joints not developed properly and was put into a contraption for a few early weeks and I never cried and I slept a lot and I wasn’t interested in feeding. Freeze? Any advice?
Call Tag: anger
It’s my third round of SBSM, and now I’m in a state where I just want to be left alone. I don’t want to play with the kids, or do anything with them. I feel so annoyed and irritated. It’s like I’m a child myself with this behavior. I’m finding it hard to change how I feel and act. Any ideas what to especially work with, which lesson?
Choices about sexual partners. How do I work with this?
Does freeze lift all at once or in layers?
What to do to feel more sensations, particularly those from anger and freeze?
How do I go about everyday life when I feel a lot of healthy aggression?
“The annihilation discussion touched me deeply.” Assume you’re talking about the training call. “I’ve done a great deal of healing work with my parents. I don’t feel anger towards them now. I had pre-birth trauma, early developmental trauma. It’s hard to access anger from that age. However, I feel extreme anger towards my parents’ fundamental religious beliefs and the church. This feels lifetime’s old and is always at the surface. Can the annihilation exercises be done towards a large organization or belief system?
I took a nasty revenge on my ex-boyfriend because he betrayed me. I felt extremely guilty afterwards and profusely apologized. However, I wasn’t forgiven. I felt extremely rejected, humiliated, and re-wounded all over again. Now I cannot seem to shake the feeling off. I cannot locate the feeling in my body. It’s only in my mind as an eternal loop of events. In the context of SBSM, how can I forgive myself and integrate it? I’ve done the healthy shame work, but how to stop with the toxic shame.
In training call five, Irene makes a point to grieve over lack of early childhood self-regulation and trauma and move on, grieve it and move on. I am feeling so stuck in the grieving vortex. I would love tips on how to close that chapter and move on from being angry at my parents
My partner has three kids and we have one together. I feel anger and resentment towards his situation and was trying for years to cope with feeling wrong for not wanting his kids. I have early developmental trauma, been working on this for years, but being in the situation with his kids causes survival stress. This plays a part in my condition of chronic fatigue syndrome. My body signals to run away, but I can’t. So I froze. It screams no, but the love to my partner and the idea of what’s right makes me override my impulse. Any suggestions?