Exploring the pendulating exercise, I realized for me, pleasant is the absence of pain. Maybe numbness and constriction is over coupled with safety. Pain told me that if it were absent, I would be off ignoring and pushing the body until it hurt. On a walk, struck by the beauty of the light on the leaves, I stood wondering where the sensation, the charge of that pleasure was in my body. Watching a deer, I felt joy, but still couldn't find sensation. Is pleasure expansion? How to wake pleasure as an internal resource.