For 25 years, half of my life, my brain starts shutting down at sunset, and it’s worse in winter. I feel drugged, disoriented for hours once it’s fully dark. I can’t do much to affect it. It’s hard to stay present, so I end up making it worse by zoning out on my computer. Early childhood trauma with disassociation, yet this feels different. I’ve had 20 years of insomnia and my nervous system is extra sensitive to change. If early trauma is related to darkness, meaning if this experience is rooted in early trauma that’s related to darkness, why would it take 25 years to express? What are your thoughts and suggestions?

For 25 years, half of my life, my brain starts shutting down at sunset, and it’s worse in winter. I feel drugged, disoriented for hours once it’s fully dark. I can’t do much to affect it. It’s hard to stay present, so I end up making it worse by zoning out on my computer. Early childhood trauma with disassociation, yet this feels different. I’ve had 20 years of insomnia and my nervous system is extra sensitive to change. If early trauma is related to darkness, meaning if this experience is rooted in early trauma that’s related to darkness, why would it take 25 years to express? What are your thoughts and suggestions?2024-06-11T12:53:27-07:00
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