Sometimes I find myself trying to force things to come up in this work, like feelings and movements. I have preverbal trauma and I know trauma is related to being forced to do things, including sexual trauma. When I try to force things to come up, it feels like I’m violating myself, and I wonder in these instances, if I’m tapping into the energy of my trauma. It feels like I’m playing out both parts, victim and perpetrator, inside myself. Does this make sense? And any advice for working with this?
