“I have some pretty significant preverbal shock trauma. When I have built enough capacity to release this, what might it look like? Can it come on without warning? Might it bring me to my knees? Since it’s preverbal, knowing what I know from my experience with psychedelics, will it be messy, and childish, and confusing? I guess I’m just curious if it might come out of nowhere and resemble having to, like, go to the bathroom really badly and not being able to hold it
